Being who I want to be, living how I want to live in this crazy town called Hollywood.

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We Burned the boats

“Burn the boats!” -Hernan Cortez

The idea of burning the boats was a strategic military tactic used by the likes of Cortez and Alexander the Great before him. This removed the option of retreat and left their men with only the options of victory or defeat.  With an escape plan out of the question these men committed themselves fully to the goal of victory.  This “burn the boat” tactic produced some of the most remarkable victories in history. Against all odds, victory is sure

"The Journey's the thing." -The Odyssey

“The Journey’s the thing.” -The Odyssey

4 years ago today my best friend Justin and I arrived in Hollywood full of dreams and aspirations.  Knowing how daunting a task tackling the entertainment industry would be and how lofty a goal our successes were, we made a resolution.  We were here to stay. No matter how difficult or bleak it looks, there was no retreat.  We burned our boats that day.  Defeat is not an option. Over the past 4 years there have been miraculous victories and terrifying defeats but we are still here. We are still hopeful.  When I look back on how excited I was when we arrived I have realized I am more excited now than I was then.  This is because I can look back and clearly see how far we have come. I am proud of the strides I have made both as and actor and as a resident of Los Angeles.  I have learned a lot and grown in amazing and unexpected ways.  So while the goals are still lofty and to some impractical, I am closer than I was when I arrived and assured I am exactly where I belong.

This life is a journey and I am thoroughly enjoying this odyssey   God has and continues to go before me and there is profound peace in that. I am excited about what the next 4 years have in store.

“The journey’s the thing.” -Homer’s The Odyssey

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Naked and Unashamed – Being nude on film

“Art can never exists without naked beauty displayed.”-William Blake

Growing up I was pretty vocal about my desire to be in entertainment. I wanted to be an actor and a singer…I wanted to do it all.  I would frequently get asked the question, “Would you ever do nudity?” With a self righteous indignation, my answer was always be a resounding “NO!” As a child I thought it was the worst possible thing an actor could do. I had a lot of hang ups human expression back then but as I got older I found myself becoming increasingly comfortable with who I was both internally and externally.  I still couldn’t see myself being naked on film.

“Art can never exist without naked beauty displayed.” -William Blake

About 2 weeks ago I was given the opportunity to appear completely naked on an episode of a new HBO series.  Without hesitation I accepted the job.  Now I would like to say it had nothing to do with the money but, in truth, the money was really good.  However, the biggest reason I said yes was because I realized in that moment that I strongly desired to present my naked self for the sake of art. I have gone streaking and skinny dipping back in high school and college but it was usually under the guise of camaraderie or drunken fun. In recent months I have begun to see myself as ART, not perfectly sculpted or flawless but ART nonetheless and I wanted the opportunity to express this perspective.

I spent most of the night before the shoot unable to sleep. Apprehension and excitement riddled my body. I had a very early call time and when I arrived on set I was quickly given a robe and all my clothing removed. I was whisked away to the makeup trailer where 4 other naked bodies were being oiled and airbrushed.  My makeup artist was a middle aged Hispanic woman who proceeded to disrobe me like she had done it a million times.  Awkward conversation ensued. “You do a lot of nude modeling? Because you should.” As she vigorously rubbed some kind of makeup on my ass and thighs. She moved things around to give my entire body an even skin tone. The whole time I was thinking “what have I gotten myself into.”  After the initial discomfort I realized I wasn’t all that uncomfortable.  In fact I was invigorated.  By shooting time all of my apprehension had dissipated.

“Being naked approaches being revolutionary.” -John Updike

I sat in a chair and in front of me were the camera crew, director and AD, and the lighting guys. The Director yells “DISROBE and ACTION!” The camera pans to me as I sat there in all my naked glory.  I have never felt that kind of liberation in my life.  It took all of me not to laugh because I just felt so free.  Before I knew it the first take was done.  After that I spent the next 6 hours doing different scenes with different angles and lenses.  I was having the time of my life.

Now I am not saying we should run around butt naked in the streets. I do, however, believe our bodies should be celebrated and our nakedness expressed as the art it is.  After all we are the Creator’s workmanship.  At the end of the day, this life is about loving yourself and being comfortable enough to express yourself, flaws and all. I look forward to the next time I get to be naked on film.

“To see you naked is to recall the Earth.” -Frederico Garcia Lorca