I’ve been thinking about control alot today. Most days I perceive myself to be in complete control of everything in my life. The truth is nothing could be further from the truth. There is so much I want for my life. Things I want to do, places I want to be, but I am finding that getting there is so not in my control. I can hope. I can even prepare but..the actual events that will get me there, I cant make happen.
So what does a guy do? Do I keep on hoping and preparing? Or do I act as if the dreams don’t exist and march mindlessly through life as a shell of who I could be? There is so much tension in answering those questions. I do not want to be swept up in extreme idealism but how do I recognize what is realistic for me?
I don’t have the answers…if anybody has some USEFUL insight feel free to help.